I have been thinking about this blog entry for some time now. I am still trying to figure out exactly how I want this post to go. I don't want this post to glorify Satan and his disgusting works, but I want it to Glorify God, and his miracles...
We are beyond excited that we are expecting a child due the beginning of April. I am currently 14 weeks pregnant right now. This road has not always been easy, and I know I am not the only one who has struggled along the way; which selfishly provides some comfort to me. Let me update on the bumpy roads..
This is our 7th pregnancy...that is not a typo. I have had 3 miscarriages and 1 ectopic pregnancy. There are only a few people who understand what my family has gone through, and I thank God for their kind spirits and wordless hugs. I have never been a person to dwell on things, but when I stop and think about it, it hurts sometimes. Not only do I go through the loss, but the emotional pain of watching my husband and children try to understand what is happening. I will never forget when we found out about our first loss, I had already knew something was not right, but when the Doctor told us and my husband broke down in tears, I couldn't help but think I let him down. That is a dark place I never wish to ever be again. But most importantly God brought me through all of them. I feel closer to him now then I ever have. I don't want answers, because it will never make a difference. I day dream about what my children look like, and the day I get to see them in heaven, and that is all that matters.
I want to Thank all of the people who prayed for us and for your continuing support. I am so thankful to have such close friends and family who love us, and share our excitements with us and mourn during our losses with us. It is a blessing!
We had a lot of appointments and blood draws in the beginning but baby is right on track. I am thankful each and every day that I have once again been given this beautiful gift of becoming a Mother!
Here is our recent family picture.
(Sarah Wornath Photography)
<3 you all!
